I don’t want to blame anyone for how I feel.”
There are times when God is like, “You need
sleep Jessica, I am going to give you a desire
to ask me for wisdom so I can explain things
to you”--so I can hear his explanations. If my
father could have tapped into God, he had a
beautiful heart, but he took his rage out on
my mother for all his disappointments. He
kept a diary. He kept it in the attic. He was
hurt from losing his job, for not feeling like a
man, so much stuff. If someone could have
really seen my dad, but they just kept looking
at him. That’s another reason I want to do this
program because we are not asking the right
questions. I remember our private talks. He
tried to protect me from everything. Out of all
of his children, he would say, “Jessica, come
go with me.” When he would go any where, it
was always with me. My daddy use to fix cars.
He would play the radio and would teach me
how to paint the car.
HimPower: Is there any one thing you wish
you could change? If so, what would it be and
why?
Jessica: I would have Justin later, let him be
potty trained at 2, let him experience all this
stuff at the right time. But I really would have
been a horrible person. I was crying every day.
And they were advertising a lot about cradle
babies, I was a single mother, and his father
had left. The promise I made to God was, “If
you let me sleep one night without crying, I
promise to find out who you are.” That one
night of sleep was the most peaceful in my
life. The morning after, I was reminded of the
vow that I made. I contacted our pastor and
asked, “Is the church open?” I went and sat
in church every single day for seven to eight
months. I said, “Lord, I don’t know what I’m
supposed to say, but I’m keeping my word,
I made a promise.” That’s what changed the
course of my life.
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