her great work yet in the end she realized there were people with ulterior motives who use this higher knowledge for show off and to manipulate people, instead of self growth & realization of truth.
Though such types of people were few yet they were very powerful people of that era who influenced the world, she felt really bad about this in her last years. In this birth her learning was to“ let go” her master said whatever you did was for your own learning so forget about how people have seen and used it just move ahead.... she couldn’ t. When she came out of this session she was feeling lighter yet sad as she didn’ t follow her master’ s teaching 100 %. In that life she had name and respect though not wealthy yet respected by wealthiest & most powerful people.
Then she came for her second session, in this we reached one of her life where she was very powerful leader and general of an army, respected and feared by many she earned great wealth. She fought many battles to make this world a beautiful and righteous place to live and again to realize in the end nothing matters.
She was blamed by her own people for cruelty, power hunger and many mishaps. In this birth she chose different path for same purpose as her previous birth for no avail. Popular, respected lead many groups and army yet despised, accused & blamed for many mishaps because of all these things this person got confused. If she is going in right direction or she is just making things more difficult and complicated. Again in this birth instead of focusing on her Karma she was more concerned about its outcome and that was making her miserable in both the lives.
In both lives her learning was same that she was not following, and that suffering of past lives create problem in this life. You must be wondering how? Well now her previous birth’ s experience of success has generated fear in her subconscious mind, so in this birth as and when she starts coming closer to success her subconscious mind begins to point how success brings misery and suffering in her life. Most amazing part is her conscious mind is not aware of it and all this time she & many other around her felt she has fear of failure when actually she has fear of success... and all this time we didn’ t even recognize there is any fear of success kind of thing.