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mission field is much more complicated than a simple binary of West to East, from white to non-white. Nearly half of the top 10 countries that send out missionaries are outside of the Western World: neighboring India, Brazil, the Philippines, Mexico. Korean missionaries now go to places like UCLA, the Rust Belt, and New York City alongside China and the Dominican Republic. Thus, John Chau can be seen as the paragon of a globalization teeming with the internationalism of religion: Christianized Chinese immigrant father meets white mother, child grows up in the Pacific Northwest, attends college in the South, and then decides to go to an island group off the coast of India. “I’m in awe of how GREAT our God is,” Chau wrote in his journal a few days before his death. “Even my heritage points to you—me, an American citizen, part Irish, part Native American (Choctaw), part African, and part Chinese and Southeast Asian—thank you Father for using me, for shaping me and molding me to be your ambassador.” In his journal, Chau expressed that he hoped to live with the Sentinelese for decades, learning their language and teaching them about the ways of Christ. Moreover, in Chau's view, if he died, he went to heaven. If he lived, he had a greater chance to bring the Sentinelese into heaven with him. Thus, Chau, in his own belief, was by no means "irrational" or "delusional" for dying as the media portrayed him to be. The only irrational and delusional parts of his thinking were that he could quarantine himself for a few weeks, come into contact with the Sentinelese, and somehow not spread virulent diseases to the uncontacted tribe. gawked at how cheap the food was. The next day, we drove a minivan north into the countryside, through fields and fields of staring strangers. We spent most of our time driving across the country. I found little purpose for me, and even for my father, to be in Thailand, other than to serve as spectators who were part of the evangelical travel industry. Because our team was so small and had an actual pastor, our roles were clearly defined: the Korean missionary shuttled us around the country and organized all the logistics, while the pastor gave the sermons during the night, usually in small homes that doubled as churches. Generally, from Korean people I know who have been on overseas mission trips—which is to say the majority of them—the church teams usually split up into different groups and visit different villages, often performing skits and running a VBS (Vacation Bible School) for the children. In my case, I had no stake in any of it. I did, however, contribute some prayers into the ether. My one "role," however, was photographing the events of the mission trip. My camera was a shining eight megapixel camera on my new pebble blue Galaxy S3, and I took as many pictures as I could: the wet markets, the children, the chickens, the night gatherings. People praying, people crying, people praising. +++ My friends, who had done mission trips in countries like India and Mexico, always came back to church tanned and weathered, giving exuberant testimonies of how they saw miracles that summer: people getting healed on the spot, dead arms becoming functional again, cataracts disappearing, demons being driven out of bodies. I saw nothing that summer. In our first night in Bangkok, a sweaty, jetlagged July night, we stayed in what was described to me as a "four star hotel," which surprised me—I had expected to suffer. During the next day or so, I played with Thai schoolchildren in the church and I remember trying incredibly hard one night after the sermon, putting my hands on the body of a frail, old man in the hopes that his paralyzed legs would work again. We were all praying together, the pastor, the missionary, my father, and I. Dear God, 22 Spring 2020