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The Guru and the Disciple
The ‘bapji’ (guru) welcomes them nicely in order to
establish their faith. ‘Welcome Sheth (honorable businessman),
welcome.’ He gives a lot of importance to this sheth, but why not
anyone else? It’s because he feels, ‘This sheth might be useful
someday. If I need some reading glasses or something else, he
will be useful.’ Now the sheth trades in the black market, and
bapji knows about this but he thinks, ‘What is it to me? If he
trades in the black market, he will have to pay for it, but I will
need glasses someday, won’t I?’ What is the sheth thinking? He
is thinking, ‘There is no problem. See bapji gives me a lot of
respect, does he not? I have not become bad.’ Now when will he
believe he has turned bad? If bapji tells him, ‘Hey you! If you
want to do this kind of business, then don’t come here.’ Then he
will think, ‘I will have to change the way I do business otherwise
bapji will not let me in.’ How long can such a faith last? It will last
for six to twelve months and then it will go way.
There is no liberation without this type of faith
So the kind of faith you need is one that will come despite
my shouting abuses at you. Faith will also come because of pride
(maan) fed by the guru, but it will go away after awhile. Do you
understand? If, once your faith has been established, it does not
go away, even if your guru were to yell abuses at you or beat you;
that is what we call ‘unshakable faith’. Is this possible? There is
no moksha without having this kind of faith. I guarantee you this.
It can never be called faith if you go away from the guru
because you found it inconvenient to be with him. In that case, are
you looking for your own convenience or moksha? If you go away
because you find it to be inconvenient, can you call that faith?
What do you think? Faith means to surrender everything.
Faith will arise here in front of the Gnani because of the
truth
I am not telling you to keep faith in me because I am not a