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Jaskaram Kaur Khalsa Jaskaram Kaur Khalsa wears her new identity on her sleeve, literally. She was born Mehgan Sepanik and raised Catholic by her Irish/German mother and Italian/Polish father in Elgin, Illinois. Once an adult, Khalsa’s struggle to find inner peace led her on a journey toward Sikhism that would change everything – her manner of dress, her name, and, most importantly, her psyche. “2009 should have been a year I felt great and full of joy, but I found myself in a very low place,” says Khalsa, who completed her BA at Antioch University Los Angeles that year. “I said to the universe, ‘I am done playing with you. I am tired, and I don’t know what to do anymore.’ Then a beautiful friend of mine gave me a stack of Kundalini yoga mantras. I listened to them day and night: the most beautiful sounds I had heard. They touched the core of me. They became a life raft.” Khalsa began studying Kundalini yoga with a teacher who was Sikh. She found herself drawn to the 500-year-old egalitarian religion, which Yogi Bhanjan introduced to the U.S. – along with Kundalini yoga – in the late 1960s. Soon Khalsa was devoting herself entirely to Sikhism, despite fears that friends, family, and colleagues might not accept her. “When I started wearing a turban outside of the Kundalini yoga and Sikh community, the reaction was uncomfortable,” Khalsa acknowledges. “When I decided to own it and decided that this is who I am – a servant of the Guru – people responded “When I started wearing a turban outside of the Kundalini yoga and Sikh community, the reaction was uncomfortable.” very positively and respectfully.” As part of her transformation, she took the name Jaskaram Kaur Khalsa and is in the process of legalizing this change. Jaskaram means “destiny of grace shining with God’s glory,” Kaur means “princess or lioness of God,” and Khalsa is a name typically given when a person is baptized as a Sikh. The reaction to her new identity by the AULA community has been particularly warm, reports Khalsa, who now works as a staff associate in the Registrar’s Office and recently began teaching Kundalini yoga to other employees. “I remember the first time I wore white to work,” she says. “Oh my goodness, people loved it. This is when I understood the power and value of the dress and how it [can have] a positive effect on all those that see it.” -KF Photo by Mikel Healy GROUNDSWELL.ANTIOCHLA.EDU | J0953_GroundswellR.indd 23 23 12/18/13 11:19 AM