We don't always dream of sweet things, we also have nightmares. Ever since I was little, I was afraid of spiders, ghosts, and monsters. Until now, I can't bear to watch a horror film on my own, and I don't have enough strength to be near a spider. But my deepest, darkest fears is something more than just creepy insects or paranormal creatures.
I have a fear of losing or hurting someone dear to me. I think a lot of people fear that. In fact, it is one of the 6 basic fears-- the fear of loss of love. I guess a lot of people fear this because losing a loved one, especially when it's your actions that led them to leave you, hurts a lot more than bruises, broken bones, and fractures ever will.
I also fear regret. I fear that one small bad decision might lead to another, then another, then another and so on-- then what if my life would be filled with bad decisions and regrets? What if I don't live my life to fullest, what if I end up lonely and bitter?
These are just some of the fears I have. And for every decision I make, I try to overcome these fears, overcome these anxieties. Of course, it never really goes away as I have infinitely many more decisions to make and people to possibly (though hopefully not) hurt.
However, I try not to let these fears affect me too much, because I have a life to live and I'd rather live it freely. I wouldn't want to be uptight with myself. In the end, as long as I am happy, and I am not hurting anyone on purpose, I'll follow whatever my heart takes me-- hopefully not regretting anything.