When I voiced my concerns to my mother about the rumors, she instantly said “Sheila, he did that and not only that, he did a lot more.” I simply said “Mother, you don’t know what your saying. He is not at all like you think.” My mother also responded, “You are a part of a cult and don’t even know it.” I quickly ended the conversation because I didn’t want to get into an argument with her, after all she did not even go to church. What really would she even know about this kind of situation?
Months went by and my husband comes to me and says that he really needs to talk to me about something very important. I said sure and we decided to go out on the porch and talk about it away from the children. My husband says, “I have been dealing with homosexual feelings the last several months.” I sat there looking at him as a deer looked into headlights. I had a blank stare. I didn’t know what to do or think at that point. In my mind I knew that I needed to start using protection to protect myself just in case he acted on the homosexual feelings. I felt helpless I had no one to turn to for help. I didn’t feel safe to go to anyone with this kind of information because everyone that I knew in that church was major gossipers. I could not afford for that to get out especially since we were leaders in the ministry.
You’re probably wondering, why didn’t I feel comfortable in taking this to my Pastor, the spiritual head of our ministry? Well the reason why I did not feel comfortable going to my Pastor about what my husband was dealing with was because the rumors that I was hearing about him were the very same rumors. The rumor was that my Pastor was gay
Not many days after my husband came to me with this information the rumors that had been so eloquently made to go away by our Pastor was bought to light and was very true. I had concrete evidence to prove that all of the accusations were real. Over and over I heard different stories from different people and places that he lived a secret uncover lifestyle and I did not want to accept it or believe it. At that time in my life I had very little experience with “deliverance ministry.”. I said all that to say, going back to my Facebook posting that I wrote earlier. The anointing flows down and so does the transference of spirits
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