GAZELLE MAGAZINE Vol. 2, Issue 4 | Page 73

WOMEN WHO INSPIRE Being in the public eye can, Ashley admits, take its toll on you. “Physiologically, it was hard for me to stay in shape with the amount of stress of working close to 12-hour days and then going to three hours of practice at night,” she said. “You’re constantly comparing yourself to other girls. They had trainers come in and do workouts before practice and then we’d dance for three hours and sweat our butts off.” Though there was never a weight goal or requirement, the women did always have to look “in shape.” “Yes, that’s what you sign up for, but that still doesn’t make it any easier,” Ashley said. If it hadn’t been for the demands of her work, Ashley might have continued living out her dreams. “I would leave early to go to a practice, or I would leave early to do these trips, and that put a lot of pressure on my co-workers, so I had to make a choice,” she said of working full-time with her father in his practice. “As I got a little bit older toward the end - I was in a different place of my life.” Looking back, she wishes that she would have had more confidence in herself - and her body. “I wish I would have stuck with what I knew was right for my body and not try to yo-yo diet because that ended up putting a lot of stress on me and had a negative impact.” But she can’t imagine what life would have been like without the experience. “I would have missed out on so much. I grew as a person and as a woman. Putting on that uniform made me feel extremely confident... it was really unbelievable to get to represent an organization like the St. Louis Rams. The most humbling experiences were all the charity events that we did. That really shaped me as the woman that I am today.” 73 SAVVY I SOPHISTICATED I SASSY