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Gazelle 14 Spring 25-48_Gazelle Magazine 4/17/14 8:18 PM Page 37 boarding school in England, she always felt very self-conscious. “I was five-foot, nine-inches by the time I was fourteen, and I was always the tallest girl when the girls were taller than the boys. I was awkward, too skinny, too tall, dark skinned. So, I didn’t always feel comfortable with myself,” she said. The pageant helped transform her self-perception. Although she didn’t win, she did come in first runner-up to a woman who went on to participate in the Miss Universe Pageant. Fashion Week) with co-founder and St. Louis Art Institute Fashion Merchandising Professor Kristy Lee. Cillah said that all of her experiences have helped her grow and become the woman she is today, and she wants women to realize that overcoming adversity is the way they will find true success. “I felt defeated and was very self-critical when I was first divorced, but eventually, I learned to love myself again,” she said. “You can always reinvent yourself. The only thing that stops me (or anyone) is having a vision, being willing to believe, and being willing to give it a try.” “That really helped my self-esteem, but it also led to bigger dreams. I wanted more. I wanted to travel the world,” she said. “I begged my parents to let me come to the United States. I had a friend who was attending the University of Missouri in Columbia, and I wanted to attend the School of Journalism.” Packing her bags, and armed with only $136, she flew halfway around the world on her own. Living in a basement apartment, she worked minimum wage jobs before being drawn to modeling. She worked as a runway model for three years, then gave it up to start a family. “I fell in love and gave up my modeling career for marriage,” she said. With the fashion runways behind her, Cillah returned to school, earning a Bachelor’s of Arts degree in communication cum laude from the University of Missouri-St. Louis. Upon graduation she landed a job as a production assistant at KSDK-Channel 5, before working at KPLR-TV-Channel 11 as an associate producer and assignment editor. When she returned to KSDK-Channel 5, it was as morning news producer for “Today in St. Louis with Art Holliday and Jennifer Blome. “Being a morning news producer was always challenging, so it was invigorating. I love a challenge, but I was often working all night. My husband and I had opposite schedules,” she said. “We were married for ten years and produced two beautiful children, but our lives changed, and we simply grew apart.” At the age of thirty, she moved out of the family home to an apartment and started from scratch, again. “It was hard. Divorce is difficult. I was a single mother, and working in television news was just no longer feasible,” she said. After hearing thousands of public relations pitches as a producer, she trusted her instinct that she could do a better job, and she decided to start her own public relations business. Five years ago, she founded Xanadu Public Relations, with offices in the Central West End, where she fulfills her passion for public relations and event planning. Early on, she was fortunate to work with celebrities like Murphy Lee and Nelly; organizations like the Pujols Family Foundation; and high-profile business clients that helped lay the foundation for the St. Louis-based firm that represents companies, corporate CEOs, established entrepreneurs, and athletes. “It has really begun to snowball, but I’m still building my business every day,” she said. After founding Xanadu, she also worked as editor-in-chief of St. Charles-based “StreetScape Magazine”, where she became known for her Q&A-style celebrity features. She co-founded the “StreetScape Show”, a television program that aired on KDNLChannel 30 and STL-TV. But, she didn’t stop there. She went back to her modeling and fashion roots to produce St. Charles Fashion Week, eventually founding Missouri Style Week (formerly Missouri GAZELLE STL.COM “That’s important for all of us!” With all of her hard work, she takes care of herself, eats right, spends time with her children and reserves time to spend with old friends she met when she moved to the United States eighteen years ago. “We get together, and nobody cares what you do or where you’ve been. They’re just your friends that you can relax and be yourself with,” she said. “They are the ‘chicken soup’ for my soul.” GAZELLE STL 37