GAZE Feb. 2014 | Page 16

LUCIANA DUAILIBE Looking at Myself If I have to define myself, saying who I am, I promptly answer that I am a woman, mother, artist, educator, player, student, researcher, dancer, housewife... I am people that I have met and I am places where I have been, I am relationality in phenomena. I used to say that my Self is mutant, due to the fact that it is in a constant movement, always in changing, in a process of discovering of the being. As Buttignol suggests, “subjectivity is constantly in flux, sometimes it is difficult to know which of my selves is speaking” (Buttignol, In Diamond and Mullen, 2006, p123), I am also among several selves, switching from artist to housewife, from mother to philosopher in a fraction of seconds. Looking at myself gave me the change to take a close look into my being with a dilated pupil. As a process of reflection, I could see and be seen. I could regret, project and express feelings, wishes, traumas and dreams. Experiencing relationships which one I did not have experienced until now. Having the opportunity to look to myself with a reflective eye, look with the eye that is looking to myself is the result of this process. About Myself Leave my life in love Understanding the uncertain of the universe Craziness and creation are connected Imagine the infinite: is it incredible or insolent? Asking about me: Art and Anxiety Nothing is normal, it is natural And then, the artist assumes the action. Luciana Duailibe is artist and educator. She was born in Brazil, studied philosophy at the University of São Paulo where she also participated in some courses in the Contemporary Art Museum and Education and Toys Museum. In London she did her Masters in Artist Teacher and Contemporary Practices at Goldsmiths College and researched students’ participation and autonomy in the learning process. [email protected]