I wondered if God experiences the same kind of mother’s worry as I do. Does
God know the sensation of angst like a mother’s inner dueling joy and trepidation as she sends a child into the harsh realities of the world?
To be honest, I question whether I’d understand any of this before I had children. I’d never put any of this together before or understood the magnitude of the incredible power that mothers have in this world. I hadn’t fully realized how the world only exists because of the womb until I became a part of the awesome oneness with the Creator as a creator. Only then did I recognize the paradox that is true for all females. I felt the quiet inferiority complex pressed upon me for being female that every female feels at least once in her life. And I’m like everybody else in that I don’t know how to change it. I don’t know how to remove or revise the patriarchal authority forced on females as a consequence of man’s feelings of inadequacy. And if it’s not inadequacy, what is it? Why do we as a culture continue to tell the myths related to women and our role in society when we know better? We have the knowledge, we ate the apple together, and we need both egg and sperm to create a zygote. Don’t punish women because we have the systems for gestation and delivery, honor us because we create generations. Otherwise, as I often find myself, I viscerally need to know why man gives himself all the kudos for developing nations, countries, basically the world, when in fact it was, it is, for the most part, woman who built the universe with God.