Anxiety A-Z by Zacharie
Anxiety rises like the rolling tide, rough and relentless
b u t n a t u r e a t t h i s p o i n t . It w a s h e s o v e r , e n c a s e s , a n d
squeezes the life out, until only a shell of exhaustion is
l e f t . It w i l l r e t u r n j u s t a s h a r s h l y a n o t h e r da y , a l w a y s
present but not always so vicious.
B e f o r e i t b e g a n , t h e r e w a s p e a c e . T h e r e w e r e fr i e n ds ,
many of them. There were opportunities that could be
taken without a second thought. But never again will that
be true.
C h u c k l e d r e p l i e s c o m e f r o m e v e r y d i r e c t i o n . T h e y do n ’ t
understand the crushing weight of tentative panic.
Everything is perceived as a threat. There is never an
instant of true relaxation. It seems useless to try and keep
calm.
Fighting a war that cannot be won without support. It can
get better, but will it?
Go it alone. Don’t bother them. They have enough on their
plates. Asking would j ust annoy them. Asking would
disappoint them.
Hating every word uttered. Hating every move made.
In d e s c r i b a b l e i n s e c u r i t y . N e v e r a m o m e n t w i t h o u t fe a r .
Never a moment without some threat.
Joking remarks that hurt. Joking remarks that lead to
outbursts. Joking remarks that lead to punishment and
fear.
K i l l i n g t i m e w i t h n o t h i n g . P r o c r a s t i n a t i o n i s a fr i e n d. I t
keeps panic at bay, at least for a short while.
Lying about work not done. Scratch it out quickly so they
don’t notice.
Mind bombarded from every angle . Disappointment. Don’t
matter. Give in.
No one seems to understand. They mock. They taunt. They
c a n ’ t s e e w h a t ’ s h a p p e n i n g14O r m a y b e t h e y do n ’ t w a n t t o .
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