She wanted to faint to hide her
embarrassment. She never forgot the devilish
grin of her mother-in-law when her eyes met
hers. She felt like she was the laughing stock
there. When she looked around, none there
could ever help her. This wasn’t her place. She
didn’t deserve to stay in this hell. She had
awakened from a very long sleep. Ultimately,
she realized the difference between fantasy
and reality.
She couldn’t remember how she made it home
to her parents with her eldest child. She
poured out her heartaches and pain to her
parents; she had made up her mind to end her
marriage. The thing that hurt her most was
that she had to leave her youngest child with
her husband. She couldn’t afford to bring both
children when she left him and the place she
considered her living hell. She promised that
we would come back and get her youngest
child. He heart was breaking; finding a way to
get her child away from this man was her
main goal in life.
God is so good that He answered her prayers
again. A few days after leaving the place she
once feared, she returned with her loved ones
and social welfare officials. She sought all of
their help in her fight against her husband,
her ex-husband—to take her youngest child
with her. With God’s grace, she claimed her
victory. She was given the full authority to
take care of and rear her kids.
Being a single mother is better than living
with a man who can never appreciate the love
she has to offer. Her life in this journey isn't
always easy, but having her kids with her
means everything.
After nine years of “dumping” her, her exhusband finally asked her for her forgiveness.
He has his own family now. So what did she
do? She readily forgave him.
In fact, she had forgiven him even before he
dared to ask for forgiveness. To her, the past
is past. Life is beautiful, and life has to move
on. Every day is a blessing. Everywhere has
catastrophes, but behind disasters loom
great blessings. The sweet smile on her face
shows that she has moved on. Though the
heartaches of yesterday are healed, the
scars in her heart will always leave a mark
in her life. She will always treat those
miserable experiences in a positive way
—these terrible life experiences molded her
to become a better person, a better version
of her. Above all, she will always be
thankful to the Father Almighty who is
always ready to give her a tight hug; He
shows her His amazing love even though
she knows how much she has failed Him.
She believes God has something better for
her. One day, she will find the right one, the
one who deserves the love she has to give
him, the one who will also accept her two
kids.
Now, dear Reader, you may ask why it
seems I know a lot about this woman,
especially her feelings. I should know
because I am that woman. –O
Bio: Roneyln is a mother of two, registered
midwife, writes short stories in her native
tongue, Ilokano. One of her stories bagged
the 2nd Prize for Ilokano category of the
64th Carlos Palanca Memorial Awards for
Literature in 2014. Roneyln lives in Norte,
Philippines.
Email Address:
[email protected]
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