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The Creation Myth I am moulded as my mother Sculpted then as if my father Landscaped, excavated, examined in his shell. Are you on any medications now I ask him, after the four days and nights without sleep. ‘No. I just work.’ • When she was made, she fit. When I was poured in from out It overflowed and flopped about. This is me now. In a week I’ll be someone else. The silver oxide face is my face, but not me now. If the pictures end up bad, can I blame him, or is it me, unable to keep still? Over-fat, extra dough on bones, Redundant dough balls on the side, Sinking slow like stones. How much had I changed? Tapping the floor with my right foot, nerve caught in the moment in the end of the black tunnel; I Under comprehending, over Contemplating. Not even very good At skiing. running around the field as if the lightning might strike down on me if I find myself grounded in one place. Bring it back up, heave ho. Swing it back around, slo mo. I’m always on my knees. Now it’s starting to rain outside, down the windows giving the room a greyer tint for the two old friends inside. Not praying, not pleasing, But deeply excavating- Just removing alien dough. Lara Johnson-Wheeler In My Friend’s Studio, Söder, 2015 which wasn’t really his studio. A Leica – the Japanese one, I said, then it’s not a real Leica, said he. Looking up at the badger on the top shelf that belonged to one of the two artists both of whom were never present my soles creak the wood-coloured boards of the white room. ‘I sweat a lot’ then the white flash ‘when I work’ inverted black polyester Although my head keep turning left and right, him sweating, not noticing the flashes almost matching the steady rhythm of rain outside; I can’t face it. Keep still. Charles Yuchen He Songs of the Heifer Is. Nothing. When I can see and hear and touch and feel. Is. And he worked all the time. I, in up to my knees the brook, watching. If this was a real photo shoot My face against the bulging retinal lens, I would have had a nervous breakdown thinking about the new Sony Ericson he used in our French class, not working by now, he said. Nought to be said but my grandfather, the drunk would lay flat-out on the bed of his battered cart, with a horse so loyal as to take him home. Back then before my life began. I’m leaving on Sunday I said and never to return I once thought being able to walk away from bullshit in life what a life my life my silhouette shot through the windows towards the café across the park. Trying to keep naturally still. When did it begin? Picture the blank days of nothingness that he was also part of. Charlie and I had to pull a calf out, its legs tied with hay strings desperate to save the mother in the barn, stretching. Gentle Sally, in the den, beneath the ash tree crying because the heifer wouldn’t get up. She with anger at the barn brutality, me accustomed to it now, the younger brother, a boy the dutiful man. Have to. But she, a woman and within