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to him, seeking help and counseling one
evening. I told my Pastor-Elder about a few
of ” his abusive incidents, asking for help…
and guess what? Well, our Pastor-Elder did
not believe me! I was so hurt… I began to
cry!

Ysidra: “At the time the marriage collapsed,
we were attending the churches where my
former father-in-law was the pastor. My inlaws knew our marriage was struggling and
often tried to intervene and counsel us.
…That was their way of supporting the
marriage. When it was time for me to make
my exit, I did not consult with anyone
because I knew they would want me to stay
and “endure all,” …and I was not willing to do
that.”

God. …dissect that which the organized churchsystem-calls-Christianity.

Roc: “My experience caused me to question God
in the sense of… ‘What is wrong with me? ‘…Was I
not sexy enough, pretty enough, etc. …until I
finally came to the realization that this wasn't
about me. This was clearly about his demons, and
the inability to be truthful with me, not as my
Leader but as my husband. I finally came to terms
with… my husband loved me, but his body
rejected me. That "Down Low" demon is
powerful.

Wenona: “…I questioned a lot of things, which
makes religious leaders itch and nervous. …That
eventually led me to leave church as a whole.
…But the funny thing is once I left the
institutional church, that's when I started to learn
Question: With all of this abuse from more-about-God!”
the men whom you married as
"preachers of the gospel of Jesus “It was absolutely incredible! I got closer to God
Christ" …and preaching a gospel, that when I drew away from church folks! I think I
according to your reports, they were needed that time alone...just God and I … so He
obviously not living themselves… Did himself could show me things… …Answer my
your experiences cause you to questions, what have you. So to answer your
question, God, Jesus …your spiritual question, my experiences made me question my
religious beliefs, but strengthened my spiritual
beliefs?
beliefs.”
Wenona: “…What a LOADED question! My
experience with preachers - being abused by Ysidra: “The experiences of my marriage never
them, cheated on by them, mistreated and caused me to question God’s existence in my life.
lied to - definitely caused me to question How strong is a belief system if it can’t be trusted
EVERYTHING I had ever been taught in the I always knew that God was with me, although I
often
questioned
church-system.”
why His presence
seemed so distant."
“While some may see that as a bad thing, I
eventually looked upon it as an opportunity
to grow spiritually. I never stopped believing
in GOD or Jesus Christ...but I did question
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