It took a long time and years of therapy but I know now I am enough . With all my flaws and imperfections , I am enough and am worthy of connection . My vulnerability makes me who I am and it ’ s through this vulnerability that my creativity is driven in an honest and true way . When I allow myself to be exposed I am given the opportunity to explore fear and how that translates into what I create . Owning my fears and seeing them as puzzles to construct or disassemble are stepping-stones towards who I am as a human . What I explore and witness along the way is the magic , and what is discovered visually – what is seen – is the validation of my journey . Sharing this with the world has become my life ’ s work . I owe it to myself . I owe it to the frightened child who lived with shame most of her life .
In 2010 , while at LACMA visiting some of my favorites :
Willem de Kooning ,
Richard Diebenkorn ,
Robert Rauschenberg ,
Cy Twombly ,
Jasper Johns , I had what I refer to as a eureka moment . I had seen these paintings dozens of times but never put together that the " wax " they used was an encaustic painting medium and not just melted crayons . That moment changed my life .