I’m not going to lie and say that it’s easy to trust
God when what you need is something real and
tangible and it feels like God is anything but tangible; however, I can tell you that this last year
has been a year that I would never change.
God has brought me to my knees worldly speaking but at the same time has picked me up and
placed me in His lap. I have never felt that peace
and confidence in Christ that I have felt this past
year. Handing over finances to God is one of the
hardest, yet most rewarding, things we have
ever done.
The past year plus has been hard, financially
wearing, mentally exhausting and emotionally
taxing. It has stretched our finances, our marriage, and our trust but I wouldn’t change any of
it.
The thrill of seeing God at work
and knowing it’s for the best out weighs
everything.
I even said at one point that even though I long
so much for financial stability again I have also
learned to love the instability because it allows
me to see the active hand of God. As I look back
on the past 16 months and remember the ups
and downs, the tight weeks and financial gifts
that made things possible I realize that this
whole situation never was about money or employment, it was about trusting God to provide.
Every tight week feels worse than the last, but
every gift is sweeter. I have learned through
these gifts that it’s not a coincidence or an obligation on someone else to help us; it’s the hand
of God at work. Working through someone else
to make sure he provides for his children.
I often thought back to the Israelites and their
escape from Egypt and how many times they
doubted that God would provide, how each
situation felt worse than the last, and how they
missed out on the beauty of trusting God.
I don’t want to miss out!
Even this very day I look at our bank account
and wonder how we will make it to the next
paycheck and if I will be able to buy diapers before we run out; the problem may still be there,
but the fear is slowly diminishing. Fear is being
replaced by fascination; the fascination of what
God will do next.`
1 Corinthians 10:13
"No temptation has
overtaken you except
what is common to
mankind. And God is
faithful; He will not let
you be tempted beyond
what you can bear. But
when you are tempted,
He will also provide a
way out so that you can
endure it."
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