living with MS is just way too scary. I choose to
dwell on the things I am grateful for and I noticed that while I feel grateful I do not feel fearful. Obviously the two cannot co-exist.
Instead of focusing on the lies of the enemy, who
came to steal, kill and destroy, I engraved the
promises of the Lord on my heart and I meditate
on it daily: He has plans for me to prosper, a
hope and a future; He shall never leave me nor
forsake me; I shall fear no evil, for His rod and
His staff protect me; I can do all things, through
Christ who strengthens me; I am wonderfully and
fearfully made; He is the Potter and I am the clay.
I guard my heart and mind
vigilantly!
Secondly, I retaliate. I refuse to roll over and play
dead.
When the doctor said: “Mrs. Grobbelaar, I have
some very bad news for you, you are in the middle of a very dark storm”, I responded with:
“Then it is a good thing, that I know
the Captain on my ship, for He has
calmed many storms before”.
MS caused lesions in my brain where my immune system previously attacked and tried to
destroy my brain. When my neurologist said:
“Mrs. Grobbelaar, your MRI will never come back
clean”, I asked him to write on the outside cover
of my file: “Amanda Grobbelaar believes in miracles”.
The medication I was prescribed to slow down
progression caused my white blood count to
drop to alarming levels and when my GP said:
“Amanda, if you get a bacterial infection now,
you are not going to make it” I remembered
what Jesus had done for Lazarus and let’s face it,
Lazarus had a much bigger problem than me. For
man, a situation may seem impossible, but for
God, all things are possible!
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