the hospital emergency room. There I was told I
was below the hospital’s rating of starvation, my
organs were beginning to fail and if we couldn’t
turn this around I had a matter of weeks before
I could not recover. I guess that was a nice way
of saying I was dying. The protocol to kill these
parasites wasn’t known, so the Doctors took a
chance, a guess and gave me a course of very
strong antibiotics. The antibiotics worked and
killed the parasites; unfortunately the damage to
my colon and my body had already been done.
Because the parasites had gone undetected for
so long I was suffering from multiple medical issues.
Although I am now parasite free, I am not free
from the destruction my body suffered. I cannot
work anymore; I miss a lot of holiday events and
family functions. Travelling is pretty much out
of the question. It’s funny, what people assume,
the questions are often the same “haven’t you
prayed for complete healing? You know God can
restore your body, maybe you don’t understand
God’s Grace and His healing powers!” “ I could
explain it to you and pray for you!”
That day I became determined to be able to answer each person who now saw me as less, but
with the love of God, and what better way than
to remind them of the mighty men of the Bible
who may not have been considered physically
whole in their lifetime.
Yet, God considered them whole and
spoke His Word through them changing
lives.
Jacob wrestled with an “Angel” all night and just
before daybreak the Angel touched Jacob’s hip
and gave him a new name “Israel” because he
struggled with God and man and had overcome,
however, Israel walked with a limp for the rest
of his life. The Apostle Paul talks about a “thorn
in his side” He pleaded, (prayed) to God three
times to be freed from it but God told Paul His
grace was sufficient and He did not remove the
thorn. Although we don’t know exactly what the
“thorn” was it obviously caused Paul great pain,
but Paul continued on with his ministry.
Timothy, another Apostle of Christ was encouraged by Paul to drink a little wine for his stomach
because of his frequent illnesses. But my favourite is Sarah, Abraham’s wife who was unable to
have children until God intervened at the age of
ninety years old; she became pregnant and gave
birth to a son named Isaac. God didn’t see any of
these people as broken, worthless, or unusable.
He saw them as whole; whatever they
lacked physically; God supplied, He
made up the difference.
God saw them through His eyes and He was able
to use them to touch thousands, maybe millions
of souls. God has always taken what the world
doesn’t value and made it valuable.
So here I am after an obscure illness has left me
unable to work and God has given me a new occupation of His choosing.
To answer the people who don’t think I understand God’s grace and God’s healing power; if
there is only one thing I understand it would be
God’s grace. His grace has sustained me, protected me, taught me, allowed me to repent
and given me the ability to accept my physical
limitations. Without God’s grace I couldn’t breath
and I wouldn’t want to. Of course I have prayed
a thousand times to be healed, I have pleaded,
begged and cried, but I am still as I am, but that
does not lessen my faith one bit. In fact it gives
me an even stronger reason to hold on to God
because I now know my wholeness is in Him,
it always was and it always will be. God fills in
what I lack, He sustains me and that is more than
enough.
So I will continue to live my life, take my medications, pray and write and maybe one day God will
heal my body completely, but in truth it doesn’t
really matter, because He has given me the
peace that surrounds me and that is just as good
as Him sitting down next me and my little pug
dog and telling me I am going to be OK.`
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