tried to talk to her about it. Every time I caught sight of her, my heart seemed to skip, and my face flushed.
It was then during lunch watching her joke with my friends, it dawned on me. I had a crush on Nathaly. I immediately denied this feeling, but deep down I knew that I’d fallen, and I’d fallen hard. I spent the next week praying that I was mistaken, but the feeling refused to fade, and all I wanted to do was hold her hand.
That night at church listening to the music play, I stood from the pews and looked up at the altar. With watery eyes that stung, and hands that clutched the other, I began to pray.
Dear lord, this is so wrong, but it feels so right.
I glanced once more to the open bible on my right and read, “You shall not lie with a male as with a woman; it is an abomination, Leviticus 18, 22.” I felt my heart sink with guilt. I was an “abomination.”
I recalled texting Nathaly a few days before, confessing my feelings for her. I had begged her not to feel the same for me, exclaiming how it was a sin that I had to rid myself of. She’d reluctantly agreed to try and repress her feelings for me because she did like me back.
I looked back up at the altar and wiped my tears. Her laughter rang in my ears. A smile came to my lips recalling her jubilant personality. She likes me back. My heart felt warm, and I knew that deep down, I didn't want this feeling to fade. Then I realized, a love like this was worth more to me that following the rules I obeyed all my life. It was okay to love Nathaly.
I found myself praying, "Nevermind Lord...don't cleanse me."
I picked up my phone and texted Nathaly.
With an Electric Perspective, I’m Mary Tavares.
Please cleanse me of this sin.
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