Yet I am still at a loss and driftless in a sense. Lost in how to be better than I already am, and how to somehow be the best- whatever that means. But, I think it is wiser to be lost in the ladder.
My need for success drove me, and my need for perfection, never satisfied, only pushed me more.
I kept thinking about what I could have done better to get a higher grade, not for the care of actually learning.
This drive for success makes me incredibly proud and confident one day, and the next almost completely destroyed and defeated. And honestly, I would not change anything. This is the sole reason I am successful somewhat, even if in some moments I feel utterly lost and useless.
With an Electric perspective, I am Tyler St. Amant.
Art by Alexandra Loza
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