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THE FIVE FINGERS OF SOCIAL DESIRE 111 racism reflect what happens when the social desire for ‘nature’ encounters moments of ecological injustice. The second finger of social desire, associative desire, may assume an oppositional dimension when we resist forces that obstruct cooperation. Resistance to oppressive institutions such as racism, sexism, and capitalism, which counter the desire for mutual recognition, is bom out of associative oppositional desire. In turn, social experiments in intentional communities, or worker-collectives, represent examples of associative oppositional desire. Attempts to share, barter, or cooperate when such activities are discouraged or prohibited, demonstrate the relentless socio-erotic opposition to the institution of capitalism. In addition, when people risked their lives to work the underground railroads or to hide slaves in the U.S.; when a battered woman runs to a phone booth in the middle of the night to call a friend; when a poor woman gives her neighbor money for food, such acts represent expressions of the desire to oppose through association, pushing past institutionalized sources of separation, isolation, and alienation. The third finger of social desire, differentiative desire, may become oppositional when we are confronted by systems of authority that demand expedience and conformity. Oppositional differentiative desire is the push to differentiate our own desire from the desire of those in power. Within the context of hierarchy, differentiative desire takes on a new impulse. Rather than differentiation within the context of a greater cooperative collectivity, differentiative desire becomes the desire to differentiate from the ideas, institutions, or individuals in power. Sabotage, often misinterpreted as self-defeating behavior, can represent a vital act of self assertion. Just as men may misinterpret women’s sexual desire as ‘irrational’, they may misinterpret women’s oppositional desire too, misperceiving women’s resistance as ‘incompetence’. In Lesbian Ethics, Sarah Lucia Lloagland discusses Donna Deitch’s documentaryWoman to Woman, in which a working class housewife describes feelings of Lustration and helplessness in regard to her life and work within the home.17 At one point in the interview, the woman gets a gleam in her eye, lowers her voice, and asks the interviewer, ‘Have you ever bought something you don’t need?” Confessing to the interviewer that she often buys cans of beans she has no intention of using, just to waste her husband’s money, she concludes, ‘You have to know IQ you’re alive; you have to make sure you exist.” This desire for agency or self-determination is an act of oppositional differentiative desire. This desire is expressed in a spectrum of sabotage activities ranging from burning dinners to hiding the master’s tools on the plantation. As Hoagland points out: