Devine Glory Magazine Worshipper: Summer 2013 | Page 8

Submitted: Stephanie Suell

He loves me,
and I in all of my infinite wisdom
Can’t seem to understand why He would want to be with me
Me with all my complications, my stipulations and my flaws
Although society has sometimes labeled me as a prodigal
I know, deep within my heart
I have not lost my fervor
My desire
My drive
To bask in God’s presence
It’s just sometimes
I can’t find my way
Find my way through the murky darkness that envelopes

A hundred fold return
Because this day is my day of redemption
This is the day I reclaim my inheritance
I see my father standing there with his arms open wide
He is calling and begging me to come inside
Today I have decided that I will not continue to run,
because I can no longer
hide
So I just oblige and run into his presence with thanksgiving
in my heart and a praise upon my lips
I no longer want to be labeled as a sinner or a prodigal for
the world to call its own
Today I am simply a child of the King
Who has finally, finally,
found my way home!
After the death of my Mother in 2006, I temporarily veered off
path. Upset, depressed and feeling like God had forsaken me
by taking my best friend, I turned away from God. After I
came back home, I wrote this poem as a reminder to myself
and others that God is always directing our path, even when
we are unaware or confused about our destination.

my spirit and soul
In the form of trials and tribulations that unfold
So I struggle
Because this is my life
I’m blinded
Blinded from seeing the light
Distracted by actuality on the left and reality on the right
I stumble
Continuing to walk in my own way
and not God’s will
Forgetting that spiritually I have already been set free
Set free by a merciful God who knows me for me
and still He loves me
If I could just get past the mirrors reflection of my physical
appearance and my past
I could reach out and truly grasp the fact that God made me
in his image
He formed me
Molded me into an intricate masterpiece
A beautiful work of art
Lightly dusted with the essence of Eve and Ruth
The courage of Esther
Shrouded with the spirit of truth
Covered with the garment of praise
He’s not done with me yet
I’m still a work in progress
Although I don’t expect any of you out there to understand
I’m grateful that I really don’t have to explain
Because my God is all knowing
So today I go back to my first love
Back to the one who made me whole
Today I take back everything the enemy has stole
Rightfully so, I have justifiably earned,
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Stephanie Suell is a Poetess, Author and Activist who uses
her gifts in the written and spoken word to inspire women
towards their dreams! Her movement, Virtuous Vibes,
works diligently within the community to equip, en-courage
and empower women! She is the author of three poetry
books, a cook-book and her debut novel, “What You Won’t
Do For Love” was released in April of this year. She is currently working on a devotional due out in 2014. Visit her on
the web at http://www.virtuousvibes.com/ Visit her blog for
women at http://www.1-speak-female.com