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I will never forgive myself for not fighting to spend time with you when your wife wouldn’t let you see me. Missing you is the strongest feeling I have at the end of the day. I never go a day without thinking about you and wondering what you would think of me now. I’ve changed so much since you last saw me; everyone in our family has changed immensely. It seems more like a decade rather than only going on five years since you have been gone. Every day I wonder what I could have done to save you and then you could be here and happy. But she ruined that happiness for the both of us. There are times when I smile but it isn’t genuine because I know what its like to have happiness taken away.
I know since there isn’t a god that there would be no way for you to read this, but I would like to have the thought that you would’ve read this if you were still alive. Never forget that you are in my thought each and every single day, thinking of all of the laughs we had and the many more we could have had. You are forever in my heart Daddy. I love you.