Everyone who knows me knows that I have done my fair share of backstabbing, and if you have known me throughout all these years then you would know that I went from being this really sweet person to being this complete bitch who thought that I was better than everyone and that everyone owed me something in some sort of fashion. One day however, I got a little too in over my head and my world came crashing down right in front of me. I knew that I wasn't really the best friend out there, but I had no idea exactly how bad of a friend I was being. I was controlling people and I was making people afraid to come to me with problems because I was always the one who had to be in the right, and in this particular situation, I was not in the right. I felt like the world was against me and that no matter what I did or said, I would be bashed or hated, but I really did deserve it. I went from this fun loving guy to this miserable and bitter person because I got a taste of something that I loved. I lived and I learned. I guess what I'm trying to get out with this article is that we all make mistakes, that's what makes us human. We all lose our way but the people who are truly there for you and actually do value the friendship that you guys once shared, will always be there for you in the end. I spent months and months apologizing to the people who I had hurt and I couldn't quite understand why they wouldn't take my apology seriously until I left roleplay and came back that the reason that they didn't forgive me was because even though I was apologizing, I wasn't really sure why I was apoloizing. If you have done something wrong, then the first thing you need to do is actually put yourself into the others persons shoes and try to figure out why they are so angry and upset with you, because if you don't do that then your apology will mean nothing to them. If your apology is still not accepted after that, then it's time to move on. It's not going to be an overnight process and just because you guys aren't friends at that point in time doesn't mean that you will never be again in the future. One thing you can never do is lose track of who you are or the beliefs that you have because the moment that you do that's when you start being fake. So my advice on how to cope when the world is against you is to stay strong, remain the person that you are and try to put yourself into their shoes. Losing people that you are close to does not really mean that it's the ending for you, it just means that now is the time for you to actually go around and associate yourself with other people in this big place.