use us (see: Moses. Stutter, shepherd, old, broken,
despised). God can use imperfect people without too
much difficulty. What He has a difficult time finding
though is someone willing to let go of self-sufficiency
and throw themselves completely on Him. It often
takes a painful breaking in our lives to get us to that
place. But God’s not a bad guy out to break us and
get us in line; He is, in a heart of love, longing for us to
come to Him so He can shower us with love and give
us what we need to walk this often-weary road of life.
He is loving enough to take us through hard things to
get us to that place. Again, in that odd twist to how
we usually think, it’s actually in coming to the end
of our own strength that we find our true source of
strength: Christ.
I’d spent a lot of my focus pursuing a destination
instead of learning to know the One walking by my
side. I’m learning now though that God is far more
interested in teaching me WHO He is than He is
in getting me to a goal. That’s a twisting of how
I’ve always thought, but in my heart it feels right
because, as my struggles and shortcomings daily
prove to me how sufficient God is, I’m slowly losing
my fear of my own glaring insufficiency and I’m
free to just enjoy Who He is. It’s changing me from
the inside out. And after all isn’t that what we, the
bride, were created for—relationship with Christ?
There is no higher calling in life than knowing Christ.
It is out of that relationship that everything else
flows, including any life calling you may aspire to.
So if you find yourself today in a weary or broken
state, let me encourage you that you are not
so far at all from the heart of God. Bring to Him
those things you’re clinging to in your hand—the
strengths you boast in as well as the ugly, painful
things you’re ashamed of—and lay them out
before Him to do with what He will. Trust your
God enough to take down the walls in your
heart and face what’s in there. Then just let Him
hold you. It’s time to rest, weary one. It’s time to
find that your sufficiency will never be found in
what you can become; it will be found in the
One Who already is Sufficient.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Hi, my name is Tanisha. You
may know me from seeing me
sing onstage, but I prefer to step
down off that pedestal and just
show you the real Tanisha. :)
I journal incessantly and do
mud races and wear myself
out trying to keep up with
Lancaster County pace since we moved here 4 years
ago. Okay, I’ve given up; I’ll always be an Iowa farmgirl at heart. Right now most of my time is spent
working behind the scenes of our family ministry,
so my family often affectionately refers to me by my
servant-name, Ivy. “Ivy, go fetch me some water! Do
my laundry!” It’s a badge I wear with honor. ;)
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