Josie Mayle !
I ’ m ( Not ) Sorry
I had too many performances . I needed a break . I was always tired , but it ' s my own stupid fault for waking up so early . Jasmine looked tired , too . I felt bad for her . She had to wake up in the middle of the night just to deal with me . I ' m too needy .
" You ain ' t lookin ' so hot , Anthony ," Alysha noted when she saw me walk in . Her final performance was on that day . I didn ' t want to say goodbye . She ' s moved onto bigger and better things , though . I ' m proud of her .
" I ' m fine ," I said , but I wasn ' t . I wasn ' t fine . I ain ' t ever fine . I ' m always depressed or angry or tired . I ain ' t ever fine .
" If you say so ." Alysha knew I wasn ' t fine . " You gonna pass out with Jazzy in between shows ?"
I managed to laugh a little . " Yeah . We ' re both pretty tired , and I didn ' t have enough time to grab any coffee ."
" That ' s rough ," Alysha said . " You can always get something ' from the coffee machine ."
I shook my head . " Nah , it ' s okay . I don ' t like the coffee from that thing , anyway ." " You ' re crazy ." Alysha laughed . " You sure you ' re okay , though ?" " I ' m fine ." I ain ' t ever fine . I looked behind me . Jasmine was looking at me . She had that look again . That look that said , " You ain ' t fine . Stop telling ' people you ' re fine ." She saw right through me .
In my dressing room , Jasmine was sitting in my chair and looking at herself in the mirror , straightening up a bit .
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