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2019 saw the year that I got divorced after an 11 year
marriage. Going through that was one of the most
difficult experiences I have ever had to endure.
Iddah is bearing. Sometimes I felt as if my broken
heart will kill me in my sleep and I felt like I was
never going to be OK again. The world had turned
its back on me. I reached such low moments in my
life that I didn't wish to live any longer. Until I gave
up seeking solace in people or this world. I turned to
Allah. Entirely leaving my affairs in His hands and
slowly things started to change. My heart began to
feel the comfort it so badly needed. The anxiety of
the future no longer crippled my mind and body.
If anything helped me through this insanely difficult
time it was my spirituality and the relationship I had
to rebuild with my Allah. And of course, surrounding
myself with the correct people and getting myself
involved in activities that contributed to the well
being of my physical and mental self... This is where
the soccer came in. This started off as something to
let off steam and keep fit but soon it became my
coping mechanism to the depression I was
experiencing. It helped, being around other women,
talking, laughing and being in a "team" gave me a
sense of belonging.
Many of us tend to neglect our health and bodies
when we go through trauma. We forget that our
bodies are an amaanah and we need to take care of
that as much as our spiritual and psychological
needs requires us to.
INSHA Allah I am hoping this will give me a platform to reach out to more women regarding the painful aspects of
divorce, meeting them and hopefully helping them through that with my own experience.
I'm also hoping my appearance will inspire others to start covering up and being proud to step out in a manner that
represents the religion they follow insha Allah. Adopting modesty not only in appearance but in action, words and
perception.
My message to women out there..
Understand who you are
Believe in yourself.
Love yourself
you can achieve anything if you set your mind to it.
Keep strong
Keep inspiring and helping other women
Always be a work in progress to be the best version of yourself.
I am looking forward to all the love and support in building a tribe of women who will stand behind the magazine and its
initiatives.
INSHA Allah.
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