COVERED Edition 3 Issue 4 | Page 16

Why I Covered My Hair at My Matric Dance. Ilham Choonara Thinking of “the world at its finest” immediately makes me think of women. Empowered, leading-by-example women. Women supporting each other and a whole society functioning beyond the barriers of race, sex, culture, language, religion etc. To focus on the way our world is already ‘dripping in finesse’, I wanted to bring up the positivity in an often misconstrued issue - “Your, uhm, scarf?”, “your headgear”, the Hijab. I started wearing a scarf when I was 13 and began loving it from about the age of 15/16. During the weeks leading up to our matric dance, quite a few questions came my way. When someone would ask “Are you going to wear a scarf at the dance?”, numerous heads turned to hear the answer. And since almost everyone was treating the matric dance as a mini wedding and wouldn’t give anything away, I too responded with “you’ll have to see”. Honestly, I was just nervous to answer. The question of my hairstyle wasn’t simply if it was up or down, straightened or curled. It was actually the question of how my hair wouldn’t be styled. It wouldn’t just be covered with a piece of cloth. It would communicate something more and I was aware of that. Not to be presumptuous, but I felt a responsibility “on my head’ to communicate the right message. Globally, Muslim women who cover themselves are almost immediately seen as submissive (often to a controlling male figure), oppressed, backward, synonyms around this idea. The fact is, I, like millions of women around the world, love wearing my hijab. It is actually one of the most fundamental aspects of female empowerment, to be noticeably against convention, and feel so beautiful. The reason goes beyond being different. Hijab is a crown of protection. Foremostly, I love my religion and realize the greater purposes of following what it teaches. Of course, I would've loved curling my hair and styling it in an elegant updo. But I had made a decision, and wanted to hold strong to that, regardless of how difficult it became. I am a hijabi on every other normal day, so why move away from that for one night? We are constantly comparing ourselves to one another in looks, personality, achievement and ‘social status’. The thing is, we’ll always be finding someone with better, better, better. It's not in looks, but the condition of your heart and mind that attracts people to you. I covered my hair, not my mind.