I tried my best to find myself and started associating with the wrong crowd at
work…Lol, peer pressure. That is when I met him! He was married too and we
got on like a house on fire. In retrospect, I think it was more physical then
emotional. That was my first time becoming the MISTRESS! It did not last too
long. However, it made me feel wanted, needed and beautiful again. The
feeling made me powerful. So I moved on to the next affair. This time I had
more control of the situation. Knowing exactly what my intentions were. I
wanted to be the only one that he thought of when he was not with me. I
would have him running after me and the feeling was tremendously powerful.
I used the fact that my husband did this to me, so I can do the same. The
thought seem to remove all guilt that I once felt. It was only when I connected
on an emotional level with another man that I came to realise, I was the one
being fooled.
I started chatting to different women
who were in similar situations to me.
They all shared similar experiences.
Feeling neglected at home, revenge on
their cheating spouse and off course
the thrill of it, that intense power of
control.
By chatting it seemed be some form of
rehabilitation for myself. I found talking
to other people who could relate made
it more sensible. I realised I was not
alone. The main lesson I learnt was
that I had turned into the one person I
despised the most, ‘The Other
Woman!’
I decided I needed to change. I needed
to change my focus. It did not happen
overnight, however as I gradually
submitted to ALLAH, I noticed the
change from within myself.