It’s all about getting back to that essence. That energy. Yes, that power.
My story revolved around even defining the word POWER.
It was a very bad word for me. It told stories of enslavement, imperialism, patriarchy, racism, oppression and victimhood.
I found myself experiencing “power over” and feeling like a victim. In my mind though I was a “good person.” Those were my stories, the layers I carried and the internal conflict I felt.
I knew I was capable of so much, so strong yet I could not claim my own energy to be the authority for myself.
I still left home when my intuition told me it was time. I still followed much of my intuition but in crucial moments of my life, I handed myself over to fears, the “how things are” and the belief that the reality around me was truth with a capital “T”. I knew that I knew better but I had no words for it, no frame of reference.
I stayed away from even acknowledging my power lest my ego get carried away with my spirit! The truth was, I was frightened of it…so I gave it away.
The giving away of it made me not acknowledge my strong healing and intuitive abilities. The giving away of it made me suffer. The giving away of it made me a bit of a martyr.
Do we smell some stories about defining a good spiritual person by their martyrdom? Yes, another story we are possibly born into through our religion or spiritual beliefs.
When we give away our energy, we start to have less energy (power) to manifest what we want. In fact, we give power to fears so we tend to manifest what we actually don’t want.
It’s in the breaking free from these limiting beliefs and fears that we reclaim what is ours.
We get comfortable because its easier to blame others or society than to change our beliefs and clear our lens.
Honoring our intuitive and healing abilities is about accepting our inner power. It’s about knowing that the authority lives inside YOU. It’s about aligning ourselves with what spiritual activist Starhawk teaches is “Power from within instead of power over.” Oh I like that. Feel that out.
“Power from within instead of power over.”
Most of us need to be pressed to the wall and smacked around a bit in everyday life to ask,” What the hell is going on? I can’t go on like this!”
I know that I was brought to my knees when I didn’t listen about not taking a job and instead gave away my power to the fear that “there are no jobs out there. I need to take this one!” though my internal system was saying, ”Hell no! This is not for you!”
By standing and finally (!) accepting my internal gps, I claimed my power back. I make decisions and stand by them not just from facts, from my own guidance system. It’s my calling and I have claimed it.
So I ask you…”Do you have the courage to exist in a reality that others may not validate? Are you ready to connect with and live from your own internal guidance system, your true north?”
What happens when we start to accept our power from within?
• Clarity around our purpose and our work
• Not settling! Better relationships of all kinds
• Better health. Using our energy y to heal rather than be drained from giving it away.
• Self-confidence & increased self-worth
• Committing to the things and people that evolve and inspire you
• More fun. More love. More joy.
• Deep sense of gratitude
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