Connections Quarterly Summer 2019 - Gender | Page 24

L E SSON S FR O M A GE NDE R S T UD I ES C L AS S R O O M Continued from page 21 were discussing why LGBTQIA+ people felt unsafe in the feminist space and a cisgen- der straight white girl spoke up: “I know we should be incorporating all women, but I think it is better to let separate movements —#BlackLivesMatter, immigrants’ rights, etc. —fight for themselves because we don’t al- ways have time to support all groups. Peo- ple should just prioritize identifiers that are close to them.” Immediately I felt my close friends on either side of me, one biracial and the other gay, tense up. I recognized their feelings as I also sat with clenched fists, feel- ing my own identity suddenly tossed into a game of dissection that I didn’t want to play. By suggesting the prioritization of sin- gular identities, the student had excluded my friends and me. How would I choose be- tween my being a woman or being queer or being Filipina-American? Without realizing it, she had minimized and excluded the people in the class who did not fit neatly into boxes, who were not cis straight white women. But then something happened. My teacher stopped the class and called out the com- ment: “I know you have good intentions, but that statement invalidates the experiences of some people in this room and outside of it. Let’s unpack it...” A conversation opened up that my teacher started, but then asked if anyone else want- ed to speak. It opened a way for us to ensure “...we all felt safe to make mistakes and to trust that our peers and our teacher would hold us accountable, but also would leave room for us to re-enter the conversation and try again.” everyone felt seen, heard, and accepted in the space, including the girl who had made the initial comment. Although my teacher called out the comment, she called in the student. 11 She didn’t try to shame or em- barrass her, and she openly acknowledged that making mistakes is not only normal, but actually expected since part of the rea- son privilege and oppressive systems work so well is because we are taught not to see them. By the end of the conversation, we all felt safe to make mistakes and to trust that our peers and our teacher would hold us ac- countable, but also would leave room for us to re-enter the conversation and try again. It is important to distinguish between safety and comfort because throughout much of that conversation, we were all uncomfort- able. But that discomfort was part of the learning curve. As stated in our community norms, we needed to “lean into discomfort” 11. For a good discussion of calling out vs. calling in, see https://www.tolerance.org/magazine/spring-2019/speaking-up- without-tearing-down?fbclid=IwAR0iNiOER9Ma6786tRL7hu8BsGCVtjBN9Cd5asNFqS01KdRP2InQw8QYCoM Page 22 Summer 2019 CSEE Connections