I wouldn’t think so much
I wouldn’t laugh so much
I would enjoy my perfect pagoda of illusion
pagoda of fake friends and fake love, fake sex and fake happiness
at times I don’t want to be myself
at others I want, I’m happy that I am
at those times, I can see your lips and the rhythm of the words when you say “Just a second, please”
I can remember the exact movement of your arms when you reach for a hug
I’m scared to let you go
but you aren’t mine, you never will be; you’ll be happy either way (you’re strong and you know what to do)
I wish things could be simple
for once
I wish everybody would be happy
globally, eternally
I wish everybody could take their pains, hurts, guilts
put them in a teacup
and stir them away
I wish things wouldn’t end at their beginning
I wish ~