COFFEE CUPS UP! OCTOBER, 2013 / ISSUE 3 | Page 19

Everybody came rushing down the aisle to see what the commotion was. The deacons were the first to pick him up.

“Ma’am what is going on?” they asked. “Why are you two fighting in the church? This is not a place for this. We are going to have to ask you to leave.” There was no need in asking, I was gathering my stuff to leave anyway. As I walked out, I told them that they could keep him! Take him to a back room and drop his ass in a pool of Holy water. My anger had gotten the best of me. I guess my husband thought by taking me to church and breaking his infidelity news to me, I wasn’t going to react. Well I guess I fooled him. But I saw it as doing him a favor. It could have been Jesus’ wrath coming down and punching him in the other eye.

I couldn’t believe what happened. I will say again, it felt good putting his belongings on the curb. The man I called my husband no longer lives here anymore.

Well my story doesn’t end there.

A year had passed; I was beginning to adjusting to my new life. There was a knock at the door. It was Thomas, my ex-husband. He asked if he could take a few minutes of my time and it would be his last time, then he would walk away forever. I opened the door and let him in.

He took a seat at the bar. I stood up, just in case I had to deck him all over again. “Zernae, I understand how you feel and how you feel about me. I understand why you pursued ending our marriage. I just wanted to come here and tell you how much I loved you then and I still do now. I was wrong for disrespecting you and disrespecting our marriage. All that has happened, I know that I’ve caused to happen. I want to apologize. I am so sorry! You don’t know how much it tears me up inside. I know that I have ruined the best thing that was in my life, you! I am here to ask you for your forgiveness. Please find it in your heart to forgive me one day. Please understand that I am just a man. I’m just a man with many flaws and indiscretions. I know I don’t deserve such a beautiful woman as you but I am only human. If I could take it all back, I would but I can’t. I now have a beautiful child out of all of this. So there was no turning back for me now.”

“Stop! Please Stop!” I said. I couldn’t take hearing anymore but he kept on talking.

“Zernae, please hear me out.”

“You’re not finished! There’s more?” I asked.

“Yes, I have more to say. I know it is hard for you to forgive me but please know that I do love you. I am here begging you, please forgive me. I need you. We need you.”

My eyebrows rose, “We?”