CMA HeartBeat June 2020 | Page 25

youth movement By ZEKE McPherson JESUS often withdrew. We see this in Scripture; He withdrew from crowds, from His family, and even from His disciples to pray and spend time with the Father. Of course, Jesus did this as a model for us and how we are to commune with God: often and in solitude. One key instance of this silence and solitude in the life of Jesus is especially thoughtprovoking to me, however, because it involves His disciples. When Jesus goes to pray in the garden of Gethsemane in Matthew 26, Peter, James, and John were with Him. Jesus instructed them to sit nearby while He went on to pray. “Stay here and keep watch with me…” Three times Jesus goes to pray and returns to find His disciples sleeping. The disciples had one job! Stay and keep watch with Jesus, and they failed. We often laugh at them or poke fun, but recently, I saw my spirit portrayed in this story. I am a disciple of Jesus. I proclaim to follow closely in Jesus’ way of life. I am there in moments of outreach, and I strive to minister to those who are disciples as well. Often, however, I seem to neglect this very simple, intimate command from Jesus to His closest disciples: “stay here and keep watch with me.” Ask me if I pray, and I have evidence of pouring over the Lord’s Prayer from Matthew 6, and I often intercede for my brothers and sisters and my wife and children. But I am just no good at staying and keeping watch. For one thing, it takes a lot of discipline to be able to simply sit and wait on the Lord when He asks me to. I have so much else going on and I find myself often overwhelmed with the more productive routines that I have to perform to see real growth happen in my ministry. For another thing, I am so busy hour-to-hour that when I get a few minutes of free time, even if the Lord is calling me to stay, my weariness gives way to exhaustion sleep. The kind of sleep that makes me drowsy, even on the hardwood floor or in a folding chair. Then Jesus refreshes the command, “Couldn’t you watch with me even one hour? Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak” (Matthew 26:40-41, NLT). Although I am gut checked by this remark, I still find myself too tired to respond. The point in my walk with the Lord is this: there is spiritual depth and character that comes from sitting in the silence with Jesus. There is strength against temptation. There is intimate relationship with Savior Friend and Creator Father. There are all too many disciples and teachers who can talk about God and Jesus with such detail and excitement, but their personal relationship with Jesus in silence and solitude is purely clinical. Efficient. Coldly detached. And of these men and women, I am the worst. Resolving this gory internal struggle is a challenge, first to myself then to you. How can I halt part of each day to, even for just a small amount of time, stay and keep watch with Jesus, pray with the Holy Spirit, and allow Jesus to speak to me? This practice is life and strength to the disciple of Jesus, and one I need to improve. Lord, empower me to seek You and sit with You like never before in 2020 and beyond. CMA Zeke and Samantha McPherson serve CMA as Youth Movement National Evangelist. 25⎪JUNE 2020⎪www.cmausa.org