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walking traits. I try to take the long view that if I with my calling and gifts given? Did I keep faith don’t need to be justified by a record company with Him? Part of the reason I still want to do then I also don’t have to accept their pink slip this as long as I can is the still-elusive notion of when they’re no longer in roster-love with me. finally doing it right. Still, with all of the lunacy (my own and others), I had a unique and rare opportunity to get a There’s a part of me that thinks, as I reread the shot at my lifelong dream. And even though it preceding paragraphs, “Bennett, this is just didn’t go the way I thought, it did enable me to you on the eternal quest for the ‘Attaboy’. Most last long enough to be able to transition into the people would love to have the chances you’ve new era I find myself in. had and would probably do a much better job with them.” I’d be less than candid if I didn’t at I may have mentioned in a previous column least run that up the flagpole as a possibility. something I’ll cite again. We, who are I’ve half-jokingly and half-seriously said for Christians and musicians, are involved in an many years that there are lots of people much enterprise that has two things pushing and more qualified to be “Bob Bennett” than I am. SUBSCRIBE TODAY pulling on us at the same time. What we do, by definition demands attention. “Hey, look at But what I hope to mostly communicate is a me.” But it also demands our awareness of the reminder that disappointments in people and dynamic Jesus puts into play in Luke 14:7-11. institutions, even ruthless self-disappointments, To paraphrase, He suggests that you sit in the are all part of the trade off we deal with because humble seat and let your host advance you to we get to do something few people ever get the more honorable seat. Perhaps “host” could to do. People who work on a loading dock be extrapolated to mean the Lord Himself, all day long go home sore from work. If they or even the audience that pays you their attention and, occasionally, their money. Or to offer a different word picture ... you can angle for a seat upgrade at the boarding gate but you can’t just get on the plane and sit in first class on your own. There is no doubt that there was a period in my life where “making it” was the big dream and the focus. “I’ll only $29.95 per year have aches and pains, why [ ...you can angle for a seat upgrade at the boarding gate but you can’t just get on the plane and sit in first class on your own. ] be the most benevolent and not us? Why would we, as Christians and as musicians, be exempt from sometimes being sore at the end of a workday (or Work Sunday Morning)? Obviously, the only shot we have to “get past” any of it is to keep our eyes on Him Save when you bundle all 3 publications from the Adolph Agency Who is Faithful. The One who knows all the secrets, blind spots, and eccentricities that both inform and sometimes sensitive of CCM Stars, Lord. I’ll use my power hinder our abilities. The One who will listen to and influence wisely and compassionately for us even when we’re wrong and spoiled and the Kingdom.” But unless I get to have some quite undeserving. The One who promises to sort of “Tony Bennett-Style Comeback” where finish the thing that He is started: the salvation the kids take a liking to me even though I’m of our very souls in this life and the life to come. a cultural relic from a time long, long ago, He is the Overcomer. May He bind up our “modest” is likely to be the descriptor of wounds, both real and imagined, plainly seen my achievements for the duration. Sure, or exaggerated, and keep us close to His heart. sometimes I feel disappointed. But less about And teach us how to keep Him close to our being disappointed with others and more about hearts in Spirit and in Truth.  ChristianMusician.com being disappointed with myself. Did I keep faith 46 Sep  Oct 2016 ChristianMusician.com