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the mountain slopes and punctuated the sides of the trail. An air of death hung over the Davis Mountains. The soil was dry as dust. On closer inspection, how- ever, most of the burned trunks were still alive. Out of thick black stumps, there sprouted little heads of green leaves. The sight was so mov- ing that I decided to come back the next day, with my camera, to take a few pictures. This I did, but with what quickly turned out to be a mal- functioning camera. It was new, but kept giving me error messages. I hoped that at least some of the photos I took would remain intact, but—no luck. Back in Dallas, I found the images on the faulty SD card had all been erased. It took another trip a year later to capture the life that had come back after the big fire. At that point, while the damage to the sotol stems was still very evident, each root was already green with many new leaves. Destruction, it turned out, had only been a phase in nature’s larger rhythm of life and death. Reduced to ashes by the fire, the mountains had come back to life. Like I had. I plan to use one of my pho- tos of the resurrected sotols on the cover of a book that I was The price we pay is that we become incapable of hearing those eccentric voices that continue to murmur, inaudi- bly, amidst the noisiness of our world. We have killed these voices; silencing them was the first step we took in our jour- ney toward Reason. This is what the “charred root of meaning” means for Foucault: for modern life as we know it to become possible, we first had to burn that with which it is not compatible. That is to say, things like mourning and melancholy. Professional psychologists allow us a period of time for mourning after the loss of a loved one. Exceed that time frame, and you are depressed, in need of counseling or— most likely—of medication. But what if melancholy had a place in every- one’s life, all the time, and actually alongside joy? Such a complex state of mind would only reflect reality: the fact, namely, that there is always an interplay between life and death. There is always something to Ty lo o king o ver the Rio G rande fro m the River Ro ad. mourn, and always something to cele- brate. The two are insepara- of a language which would ble, like two sides of a coin. speak on its own—without This is the lesson that we speaking subject and without can learn from the charred interlocutor, folded in upon sotol plants. Death and itself, a lump in its throat, destruction are real; but so is crumbling away before having life. Life without a realization reached any formulation and of the death from which it returning without much ado comes and to which it will to the silence from which it has return is shallow. never broken off. Charred Occasionally, we need to take root of meaning.” the time to escape from the The History of Madness busyness of everyday life, attempts something like a where we are urged to be ever rehabilitation of madness. In a more rational and efficient. world in which we pride our- The quiet and peace of the selves of being ever more mountain desert allow us to rational, Foucault argued, listen to the murmuring of a there is a price to pay for sup- different reality that the noise pressing all that seems mad, of industrial civilization has crazy, and strange—that ques- tions us in our emphasis on drowned out. efficiency, progress, and profit. finally able to complete recent- ly, after years of gestation. The book is entitled, Charred Root of Meaning. The title takes its inspiration from a passage in the works of the great French philosopher Michel Foucault (1926–1984). In The History of Madness, Foucault wrote these words, in his inimitably lyrical and dense style: “The plenitude of history is possible only in the space, at once empty and populated, of all those words without lan- guage which, to everyone who lends his ear, make heard a muted noise from beneath his- tory, the obstinate murmuring BIGGEST SELECTION West of the Pecos Open 10am to 9pm Mon - Sat Music To Your Ears CDs • DVDs • Vinyl Games • Special Orders Mon-Fri 10-6 605 E Holland Ave • Alpine 432.837.7476 www.twinpeaksliquors.com 203 E Holland Ave, Alpine 432.837.1055 [email protected] St. James’ Episcopal Church, Ave. A and N. 6th St., Alpine Holy Eucharist 1st, 2nd, 3rd Sundays 11 am Morning Prayer 4th, 5th Sundays 11 am Godly Play, ages 3-9, every Sunday, Sept - May 10 am The Big Bend Episcopal Mission Welcomes You Santa Inez Church, Terlingua Ghostown Holy Eucharist 1st Saturday 5 pm Sept - May & 3rd Sunday at 4 pm For more info & summer hours, please see our website: bigbendepiscopalmission.org N OW S ERVING Y OUR A REA Residential • Commercial • Solar Design & Installation TECL #26641 • www.compasselectricalservices.com 432.837.5977 Cenizo Third Quarter 2017 13