HOW DID MY LIFE END UP LIKE THIS ?
BLAKE GAUTHIER
by
" THE SILVERBACK VIKING "
I thought to myself , “ I ’ m just over 44 years old . I shouldn ’ t be laying here on an operating table with my arms strapped down in a crucifix position .” The position seemed suiting as the surgeon cut into my wrist to begin the angioplasty . They had already brought me back once on my way here . That scared the hell out of me ! And I ’ m just as scared now laying here at 530 pounds watching the monitor as this probe moves closer and closer to my beating heart … trying to keep me from dying … again .
Almost two years later , looking back I shouldn ’ t have been surprised I ended up like that … back then I battled with depression . I would eat and drink my feelings away . Breakfast , lunch and dinner were a mere phone call away and as I grew the more I withdrew away from society until I was even having alcohol delivered . I ate and drank because I was depressed and the more that I ate and drank the more depressed I became . I was in a cycle of self-sabotage that appeared bottomless .
Back then , while on the table , I never thought I ’ d be where I am now .
I am now literally half the man I used to be , weighing 265 pounds , but I am more than twice the man I was in so many important ways . Needless to say I had to change everything in my life . I currently weight train on a 6 days on 1 day off cycle while doing cardio 6 times a week . I eat 7 meals a day . Lots of veggies and water and for my first meal of the day as well as prior and post workout : meals that are high in lean proteins and moderate in complex carbs . I had lost 170 pounds on my own before I contacted Josh Demelo , my trainer for the past 18 months , who helped me lose an additional 95 pounds plus , while at the same time helping me add a lot of lean muscle mass .
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