of using an elliptical machine in the gym . I used the jungle gym and monkey bars in the local park as my training ground . I learned to use my spirituality of mediation controlling my breathing and then my heart rate . I learned to close my eyes during these techniques to train my mind to learn in a way that my calisthenics based routines were working .
It also slowly became a spiritual awakening with lots of time to reflect on the past and wonder how I reached to this point in my present , all alone . At first it was a struggle to accept that partially was because of my short comings as a person but mostly to me . I was settling for situations that were less than what I knew deep inside I deserved . I deserved more , I deserved to be seen , heard and loved . I needed to do that for myself first before I expected that from anyone else . It was that journey that led me to more . I knew I was facing hard realities that no one is coming to save me , but me ! Along with me , was my faith and hope I have within , that God within . I wanted to be a better human being , someone I could be proud of , someone I loved looking at the mirror , someone I felt good about !
That wasn ’ t a simple task but an easy task because redemption towards your God is only one step away . It is our mental block and hopelessness that stops us . It is that doubt , anger and hate that cripples us . God ’ s love and forgiveness is always awaiting us , we just need to take the first step , the very smallest step . With time I also knew it also meant righting my wrongs and that was a slow and painful path to redemption . It is the faith and hope that the ‘ light at the end of the tunnel ’ is real , it ’ s that continuous step even if it meant ‘ crawling on your knees ’ step , it ’ s the ‘ never giving up ’ step . It ’ s the let ’ s ‘ rest but Never Give Up ’ step . It is that hardest step that requires you to do better to accomplish better and reach your best possible potential of yourself . It is that Mental Block that I had to overcome , that it IS possible and Yes the Husky Kid Can do THIS ! It was fighting all the doubt , rejection , failures and mental discouragement that I had to fight more so than the physical fight . Yes , it was a fight ! Fight for life , fight for more , fight for love , fight for wanting more for myself and what I knew I deserved deep down inside my child self . I wanted to be seen , heard and recognized for my uniqueness , in my heart and soul . It is there and I deserved it ! As humans we are all sinners , but no matter how big and deep the sin , you can still do it ! I know the struggle ; sacrifice and dedication that ’ s put in becoming an athlete and it can be a very , very lonely road . I ’ m here to tell you that you are NOT alone and you can become the
best version of yourself !
That path led me to finish what I started . On Dec 4th , 2021 , I won Gold on the nationals pro qualifier for masters men ’ s physique at 52 . I thought my path and journey was redeeming myself from not giving it 100 % at the Pro Qualifier . But the path through redemption ; mental health , physical health , addictions , had earned me my second chance in life instead it was wanting more for myself that I got more . On Feb 19th , 2022 I was ordained as a Pastor which as it turned out to be my true gold ! It was that path that made me feel I had reached my truest potential which is planting seeds of hope in others and inspiring everyone to do better and love themselves in the process .
My final message here is your physical , mental and spiritual work you put in is yours ; nobody can take that from you . Nobody can discredit , remove it from you or cheat you . You have accomplished what many will never do and that is your True Gold . Sharing my transformation I hope can inspire someone by planting a seed . No one can make you change ; only YOU can . Only you will make that final commitment to yourself and to loved ones that will change your life for all the right reasons . I will also say this , for anyone that wants to take the first step - I am a phone call away to go to the gym with you for the 1st time - to walk and then run towards your transformation ; to the better YOU ! # ResultsProven # BlueEyedDragon # TruthLiveIt