of my life behind me . I had been feeling very good in my day to day life and the intense headache started going away after a few weeks . I wanted to get back to my bodybuilding goals and to hard training . I started training a little more intensely and seeing how I felt and I was feeling fine on a regular basis . I finally got the call that my surgery would be in June of 2020 . I was relieved . As much as I was scared of this battle , I wanted to get that fight over with and leave it in the hands of God and the doctors . In this time frame , I lost a lot of the muscle I had on my frame . No matter how much I still stayed on diet , without the hard training stimulus my body was used to , I ended up going backwards . I was still scared to push 100 % with my training at this point because I knew that I had this issue and that if I pushed things too far it could be fatal . It was hard mentally going in for the 2nd surgery as I was feeling fine in my day-to-day life . Why go
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