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Cat Cka

mental health of a 16 year old girl

Cat Cka
All my life struggling with what my mind says , what distorts and what my head creates on me and especially around me and it cost me a lot to accept it because it showed me that mental problems were something bad something to feel bad about something that people should not know and did not want to be treated differently , unfortunately the stigma about mental health and mental disorders has not been removed and I did not want to be defined , just for that because I am a person and my problems are a part of me only . They are not who I am and they do not define me as a person , but learned not to deny what I had and I do not feel bad about the struggles that I usually have in my head , I am a person who all his life has had to deal with different types of problems that respects my mind and that does not define who I am , I amTired that people see people who for example , take pills like crazy , the most used term , people are often uninformed and somehow still do not understand how important it is to be able to inform themselves and understand psychological disorders and unfortunate for this people do not receive help what you need , people who cannot understand what happens to them because they are not informed or people who die from the fact of not paying attention to red flags or minimizing how they feel . I am not ashamed to say that I fight against anxiety and depression on a daily basis that I am a person who takes a pill in the morning every day and who sees his psychiatrist every month because every day I fight against this , anxiety is not something that is fixed neither depression nor borderlin e nor being bipolar you will never be able to change it you can learn how to deal with it and you can move forward every day and live your life , but it does not need to be fixed and if it is something difficult and anyone wanted not to have it , but that cannot be chosen I am someone who is fighting with depression for 5 years who has lived with anxiety since always having panic attacks from time to time- and who challenges his social anxiety every day who has gone through some eating disorders and planned his suicide on more than one occasion and nothing That defines who I am but I do not deny it , I am not going to feel ashamed of who I am and what I go through every day and there are incredible days and then maybe some difficult weeks and it is difficult for me to get out of bed , the first time I read about the depression I would have been 11 years old and I did not understand anything about what was happening and then I read and saw movies and listened to people and they were going through he same thing as me and I denied it until I could not take it anymore and everything just felt so bad but I understood that many people go through this that it is normal that it is a part of me and I should not apologize for anything that respects my mental health that I am a strong person and that it is a shame the bad representation that you have given and the stigman that there is Mental health matters around this , you never have to minimize anyone because you do not know the internal war that it takes . I am 16 years old and I am proud of who I am and my problems have made me who I am .
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