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Café Spanglish Summer 2015 Obesity Almost Cost her, Her Life!!! by Angel Farley “…I became VERY overweight when I had my daughter at the age of 15..” My health and fitness journey began when I was 21 years old. Although I struggled with my weight my entire life, I became very overweight in high school when I had my daughter, Autumn, at the age of only 15. I carried myself through school, but never seemed to find the ability to be truly happy with who I was. I was uncomfortable and unhappy with being me, but it didn’t really hit me until I had my second child. My son, Cam’Ron, came by way of an abusive relationship, one that nearly cost me my life. Here I was 20 years old and a single mother to now two children. During those times life was very difficult. I come from a very poor family, and had no help from either of my children’s fathers, so the financial burden of two children fell entirely to me. “….and ate away my emotions from a drive through window”. Absorbed in “just trying to make it” I let myself continue to gain weight even after that second pregnancy. I was oblivious to the fact that for years I had buried the pain I experienced inside and ate away my emotions from a drive through window. One day, I took my kids to the park, my little girl who was 5 yrs.old then, ran up to me and pulled at my hand asking me to play tag. She ran off laughing and I started after her... I only made it a few strides before I fell to my knees. Weighing in at 267 lbs, I was so unhealthy and out of shape that I couldn’t even play 12 tag with my little girl. She ran back to me, tugged on my shirt, asking why mommy wouldn’t play with her. It was in that moment, on my knees, sobbing on the ground that I decided to take my life back. I decided that I had to do something to change the way I was living. I was all those kids had... If I continued to sabotage myself like this, I would have surely died before ever giving them the life that they deserved. And so began my journey! I Developed Eating Disorders! I tried all these things that promised to make me skinny quick! I cycled through shakes, wraps, lotions, pills, patches, you name it- I was on it. Even did adipex and b-12 injections! Still, I was fat and miserable. And it seemed the more of those things I tried, the more personally I took each failure.Pretty soon I developed two eating disorders that cycled with each other- sometimes I would just avoid putting anything into my mouth because I thought- if I don’t eat I have to lose weight... Other times I became so starving hungry that I would binge eat and feel so guilty afterwards that I’d go throw it all up! Was this what I was intended for? Trading my habit of eating away my emotions and being obese and depressed, to hovering over a toilet crying because I felt guilty for eating food? One day I was in my normal routine of diet pills and avoiding food that I apparently took the