If
i
ni
shed,
exasper
at
edasnoanswercame.If
el
l
backundert
hesheet
s
agai
n,
f
eel
i
ngev
enangr
i
ert
hanbef
or
e.
“
Atl
east
,
y
ouhav
est
ar
t
edt
al
ki
ng;
”t
hewar
densai
d,
“
Iam happy
.
”
Ist
i
l
l
di
dn’
tcomeoutofmysel
f
-
madeshel
l
andt
r
i
edt
okeepmymout
h
shutasexper
i
encehadt
aughtmet
hati
ti
swi
set
okeepmum wheny
ouar
e
angr
y
,
ot
her
wi
se,
y
ouwoul
dendupcr
y
i
ngov
ert
hespi
l
l
edmi
l
k.
AndIwi
shednowf
ort
hewar
dent
ost
opt
al
ki
ngandgoaway
,
butasi
ft
o
pr
ov
okeme,
shekeptont
al
ki
ng,
t
hi
ngswhi
chIdon’
tev
enr
emember
;
about
dest
i
ny
,
f
at
e,
hope,
andgodknowswhatnot
!ButIr
ef
usedt
ol
i
st
enand
f
i
nal
l
y
,
t
i
r
ed,
shewentaway
.Ihear
dt
hedoorcl
oseandkeptl
y
i
ngt
her
e,
seet
hi
ngf
oral
ongt
i
me,
pr
obabl
yf
orhour
s,
t
i
l
l
If
i
nal
l
ywentt
osl
eep.
Iwasi
nmyr
oom……atmyownhome……t
hedoor
bel
l
r
ang.
….
.Ir
ant
ot
he
door
,
happyt
hatmom anddadwer
ef
i
nal
l
ybackaf
t
eral
ongdayout
.I
openedt
hedoor
……andshr
i
eked……whatcamehomewasnotmypar
ent
s
butt
hei
rbodi
es……bl
oodsoaked…….Andt
hescenechanged,
Iwas12and
st
i
l
l
shr
i
eki
ng……myuncl
eandaunthov
er
edov
ermybed……t
heywer
e
maki
ngmesi
ti
nt
heasy
l
um v
an……t
r
y
i
ngt
ohol
dmedown……Iwas
pr
ot
est
i
ng……shout
i
ng……wor
dswhi
chsoundeddi
st
ant
,
ev
ent
omyown
ear
s……Ikeptshout
i
ng,
shout
i
ngandshout
i
ngunt
i
l
Iwokeup…….
Isatupr
i
ghti
nmyasy
l
um bed,
sweat
i
ngpr
of
usel
y
.I
twasst
i
l
l
mi
dni
ght
.My
ey
esf
l
ewt
owar
dst
hedoor
,
andasi
fr
espondi
ngt
omyl
ooks,
i
tbur
stopen.
Thewi
ngwar
dencamei
n,
i
r
r
i
t
at
edasev
er
,
“
Whycan’
ty
ouev
erst
opt
hat
y
el
l
i
ngofy
our
s?Ev
er
ysi
ngl
eni
ght
,
f
r
om past2y
ear
sy
ou’
v
ebeendoi
ng
t
hat
.Ev
er
ymadmansay
st
hathe’
snot
……”
“
IAM NOTMAD!
!
!
”Icuthershor
t
.
“
Yes,
exact
l
y
,
ev
er
ymadmansay
st
hat
.
”Thewar
densai
dequal
l
yf
ur
i
ousl
y
andst
or
medof
f
,
l
ocki
ngt
hedoorasshedi
d.
Isatt
her
e,
numbt
oherr
udeness,
heri
nsensi
t
i
v
i
t
y
,
t
oev
er
ysi
ngl
eemot
i
on
whi
chcoul
dhav
ebr
okenmet
i
l
l
nowi
fIhadf
el
tany
,
exceptf
oranger
,
whi
chkeptonmot
i
v
at
i
ngmet
or
un,
t
ot
r
yatl
east
.
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