As a new mommy to twin boys there are a few things that remain ambiguous, but a few I have solidified.
1. Grocery shopping with twin cuties is a spectacle- live theater at its absolute best.
2. Strength is discovered and utilized when lifting things that are heavy. I have witnessed my strength and it is very much found and gainfully employed.
3. I am loved. If the blessing of birthing two beautiful, healthy human beings wasn't proof enough, a huge showing of love and support from friends and family near and thousands of miles away, made evident the love that exists for me in this world.
4. I don't have it all figured out and that's ok. My boys are evolving, exploring and thriving on change each and every day. I cannot limit my experience to knowing and living bullet points on a list. I have a direction and the exact steps within it are divinely ordered, and that's knowing enough.
Fnally, I wasn't wrong, God was simply right. After spending weeks, really months, of searching for my error and deficiencies regarding my role in my twins' early arrival, I realized I was merely magnifying my disbelief and what I perceived as my own authority in God’s will. But I’ve since learned to favor elevating my perspective instead of my ego.
Fast forward to right now and all of forever. I am the mother of two beautiful lights that allow me to witness, in real time, what joy truly looks, feels, and moves like. And as a first-time mommy of twins, I'm overjoyed that God allowed them to skip the formalities of introductions and all the things I thought I had planned. They are my firsts and they are right in the middle of my everything.
Melissa Seneca Sadler, a new mom and freelance writer for BOLD & SAVVY Magazine. Email: [email protected] * Instagram: @senecasadler
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