As day passed, so as months and years, there
came a moment when she lost love of her life,
and then it was just me and her, I could see
the pain in her eyes, the loneliness was killing
her, but I was helpless to do anything, she
tried not to show me but she used to sulk when
was alone and I knew that.
But as we say time is the healer of any pain,
same happened with us too, we forgot about
our loss and our life came on track.
Single handedly she raised me, but as I
approached my teen age, I was spilling with
the ambitions and dreams, my priority
changed, I used to spent time with my friends
and my dreams, without even realizing, how
she was feeling, but she didn't say a word.
She knew my dreams were big and I would be
able to achieve them only if she sends me
away from her and house.
I started running after my dreams and went for
higher studies and career, but she did not
show me a single expression saying "don't go
away from me.. that she needs me". My blood
was flowing with the passion to achieve my
dreams and she was aware that her
motherhood could come in between me and my
dreams, so that she suppressed her
motherhood over my ambitions.
Step by step and as time passed I started to
achieve my goals one by one, and she used to
get so happy that she used tell every people
about my progress and achievements with
pride... Initially every now and then I used to
visit my 'Maa' but after some time those visit
also decreased due to sudden entry of my
love.
I started to spend more and more time with her
and unintentionally started to ignore 'Maa'
As time passed her love and authority got split
with my love of life.. Her eyes went on to
become dry in my waiting and one day she
decided to come over me... She met me after
so long and we embraced each other, I
introduced my love of life to her, and very
graciously she accepted her.
With her blessings I got married to her and
started to live life all of us together. But few
months later again she realized that her
motherhood is taking over on my love life and
which would eventually tear my life, so she
decided to go back to her homeland. But she
blessed my love of life and said, please take
care of my son, I have raised him with my
blood, sooner or later I wont be there for him
but I know you would.
I did not understand that statement then but I
chose to ignore without even realizing
something was not right.
Till now 'Maa' took care of me but now there is someone
new who's taking care of me well.
I got too busy with my love of life that I started forgetting
my 'Maa's Motherhood.
There was a time, when I used to get hit with something,
her eyes used to scream in pain, more than me she used
to feel pain, but now someone was there to understand
my pains but there wasn't any for hers.
She knew if she would bind me with her motherhood then
my world would never progress, and she didn't want that.
In next few years there came a time when I was sitting on
the peak of my success and achieved every dream of my
life for which my 'Maa' had sacrificed her motherhood,
but rather to crib, that I wasn't with her, she took a pride
in my success and never said a word that she was feeling
alone and day by day she was loosing her health.
She kept on boasting about me but her eyes were waiting
for me that one day I will come to her and embrace her
loneliness. She used to boast my stories of success to
everyone who comes to visit her, but used to cry in front
of my photo, and often to talk to my father's photo and
say, 'look I did it, our son have achieved everything,
which once we dreamt of.
Then again time changed, and destiny brought me at that
point where my love of life gifted me with a baby boy...
When I lifted my small baby in my hands, he opened his
eyes and saw me with a smile, then started crying, I
handed him over to my love of life, she embraced him on
her chest and started to feeding him. That very moment
I remembered me looking at my 'Maa' when I opened my
eyes.. and I could not control my tears and started crying
and called up'Maa' and I could not say any word, but she
understood what I was feeling, I could manage to say
only one line "SORRY FOR EVERYTHING !! MAA, AND
SORRY THAT I LEFT YOU ALONE". Very next moment I
decided to go to my 'Maa' with my entire family.
When I saw her, I saw the same sparkling eyes with a
smirking smile on her face by this time she was much
older and wasn't strong enough to embrace me well. I
lifted her in my arms and said Oh !! my mother why didn't
you inform me that you became too weak? That you are
ill? She just said one thing.. Beta.. 'Maa' means love and
'Maa' means sacrifice.. and I tried to live up to that only..
and her eyes saw my baby boy... Grabbing that moment,
I gave my baby boy into her arms and said 'Maa' this is
your grand son.. please hold him and bless him.. 'Maa'
got so happy to see him, and told me his eyes reminds
me your eyes, when you were in my arms this small. She
then looked at the photo of my father to show him her
grand son, but my eyes saw some reports which were
next to her, I read a cancer last stage.. I started crying
like a baby and asked Oh!! My 'Maa' I could have treated
you well if you would have told me that you are fighting
with cancer, didn't you feel, you should have told me, was
I not your son?
Now I feel like I failed you 'Maa', I failed in my duties...
You sacrificed everything for my future but didn't you
ever think that it was my duty to take care of you, when
you came to know about cancer... Do you think I am that
bad as a son that I would have not taken care of you well.