Baltic Outlook January 2019 | Page 70

INTERVIEW / January quickly! Especially nowadays. There are so many, many girls in the fashion industry: ‘skinny bitches’, plus-size, Instagram models, all kinds. There’s an awful lot of competition. And that’s why everyone’s looking for personalities. What have you learned about yourself during this time? Here I’m reminded by something you wrote to me before this interview, about how you’ve been doing this work for half of your life, and you don’t even really know what created what – whether your career has shaped I enter my character, my game, and become a different person your personality, or whether you as a personality have shaped your career. But perhaps your career has only un- leashed your true personality? You know, I hadn’t really thought about that... I remember being quite shy before I started modelling. It was hard for me to even go outside to play with the other children. I preferred to sit by the window watching them instead of joining them. Maybe I opened up a bit in school. But I tried expressing myself in other ways – I did a lot of sports, I played volleyball, I was in the drama club, I danced, I played chess. When Nils did my first photos back then, I just thought, ‘Oh God, this is so dumb, I’m just gonna stand here now, and he’s gonna take pictures of me...’ But when I saw the pictures, I started think- ing, ‘Man, I could be anything!’ After all, that’s what I had been doing the whole time up until then – I was anything and everything! I was a volleyball player, I was an actress, I was a chess player, I was a dancer. Because as a model, you’re a character. And like in the theatre, you have to embody a character. I really liked the fact that, once the hair and makeup are done, I become a different person and don’t feel like myself anymore. I en- ter my character, my game, and become a different person. But when we do family photos, I don’t know how to pose. Honest. I believe you. Really? Yes. Others might say, ‘What are you talking about?’ But I understand what you mean by embodying a different character. Because at home you’re not in character; there it’s the naked truth, you are only yourself. That’s why I can get startled when I see a camera pop up in front of me outside of the work environment. Wait, wait! Who am I? But it’s completely different at work. I’ve had black hands up to my elbows, and I think to myself, ‘I could now play the evil character!’ I’ve been given that foundation, and then it’s easier to play around with it. As opposed to not having anything and being just me, the way I really am... Confidence about myself is the best thing I’ve acquired in this job. And what can a model stumble on? Parties (laughs) and the illusory feeling that everything is permitted. The feeling that you have complete freedom once you’re away from home...which, of course, means that you don’t have to report to anyone. But that never ends well, because freedom actually means responsibil- ity towards yourself. The state of being responsible for the consequences of your own actions. Not getting enough sleep again, being late or not showing up at all for work... Sorry, but word spreads very quickly in this industry, and very quickly you could find that no one wants to work with you again. Some girls can’t handle being away from their families for so long. That’s one of the negative aspects of this work, the time that you lose with your loved ones and friends. You’re often alone, especially while travelling. Actually, you end up spending quite a lot of time by yourself. Or else you’re at work a whole lot, each day with a different team, dif- ferent people. Lots of the girls find this inconstancy difficult. You have to have a very strong core in order to endure such inconstancy. There are people who really like having an office job, regular hours, a regular rou- tine. They’re happy with that, and that’s great. But I know I could never do that. I find inconstancy exciting – the places, environments, and people around me al- ways changing. I’d definitely lose my mind in an office. I like never knowing what will happen next. bo ELĪNA DOBELE Boutique Mednieku iela 7, Riga +371 22301197 www.elinadobele.com