Aspiring Artist Magazine Feb 2018 | Page 9

Coming up I was known as the girl with the big booty that walk funny because I walk with a limp. I have Spastic Paraplegia, it is a chronic pathological condition in which the muscles are affected by persistent spasms and exaggerated tendon reflexes because of damage to the central nervous system. I was the only girl of my siblings. I have two younger brothers and My mother was a single parent. I didn't have that many friends coming up as a kid until this day I still believe it was because the way I walked. People were ashamed to get to know the real me. Even my own father coming up as a child I never had that father figure, never got a chance to experience the father daughter dance not even a father daughter chat. That affected me in many ways coming up it led me to be depressed having low self esteem and wanting to kill myself. It even made it where I was afraid to let anyone in because I didn't know if they were for me or against me. One day I realized I was hurting myself for not going after my own dreams. I was allowing people to stop me from achieving my dreams. I'm not living for anyone but myself and now I live for my children. I will not allow anyone to destroy me. So I made a decision that despite my disability I'm going to achieve my dreams and that's becoming a model. Here's a little note to the little girls with low self esteem. You are beautiful despite your short comings! Go after your dreams and I love you!! Sometimes you have to see yourself face to face in order to face your own trials and tribulations to face what really makes you you!!