Art Chowder July | August 2016, Issue 4 | Page 52

Laura Read | Spokane Poet Laureate Laura says, “Some of my favorite poets are Dorianne Laux, Sharon Olds, and Tony Hoagland. Those are poets whose work I have loved and admired for years. But I am always finding new poets to add to my list as well: last year, I read Revising the Storm by Geffrey Davis, which is an excellent first collection, and I also really liked Dianne Seuss’s Wolf Lake, White Gown Blown Open. Read says, “Poetry is for everyone; it is not an elite art or a secret code. It is the artful shaping of small moments in language, moments that are particular to our own experiences, but which also connect us deeply to each other.” Ferguson’s It’s a diner so we order burgers and fries, we drink milkshakes from the milkshake glasses and they bring the metal containers they made them in. Everything tastes good here, and I stare out at the January sky, and think of all the grey days we’ve eaten here with your mother tucked into her coat, drinking her coffee, waiting for you to say something. What will we do next— go to Rite Aid or Walgreen’s? Buy hard candies for her to suck on while she looks out the window and thinks about how we went to Ferguson’s, stared out across the street to where her dad used to cut hair, used to shave her boys’ heads as if hair was a sign of weakness. Hair is what girls have, this way a man could lift them by the scruff, like her dad gripped them, teaching them about pain and how to stand it, how to open the door and walk bare-headed into the cold. 52 ART CHOWDER MAGAZINE When You Have Lived a Long Time in One Place things start to vanish. Like the old Newberry’s where I used to buy earrings that looked like tacks, six pairs for a dollar, and then go sit at the lunch counter with the old people eating patty melts and drinking black coffee. They stared in front of them like the women on the bus with their plastic rain scarves that they took from their purses when the bus lurched towards their stop. They wore dresses from the old country. Now I wonder if they have nowhere to go. The building stands empty like a mind that can’t remember the words that stick things to their places, pants, chair, toast. How can we remember if they keep taking things down, like the house where I lived when I was young and waiting for love? I lay there in the yard in my bathing suit pink as a poppy and I could feel his shadow when it touched my body. Now there is only a clean slate of grass where that house stood, the same grass that covers the spot in Lincoln Park where there used to be a wading pool. where I took Ben until the day I turned away to get a toy for him and then he was face down in the water, and I pulled him out and we looked at each other and I could see in his eyes that he couldn’t believe the water was heartless, that it didn’t know who he was.