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I use to hold a lot of self hate on myself to the point I was suicidal, no one
knew it but me. When I discovered BTS and listened to their music it was
like medicine for my soul. They helped me overcome the self hate I held and
to learn to actually love myself, to be proud of who I am. They help me con-
tinue to push through the journey I am now on to better myself emotionally,
mentally, and physically. I am truly thankful to them with all of my heart, for
their music has become my life. I honestly love them for the wonderful men
and artists that they are.
Samantha, 32, USA
@xlkamlx
I have always had my back against the world even when the scenery
was breathtaking. Unlucky, unfeeling, unpretty, all these unending rotten
thoughts had become the persona I donned my whole life. I wanted to do
good to others so I painted my outer appearance with happy colours but no
one told me that same mask reeks of bitter and envy. By the time I realized
it, I had cracks under the mask. I was breaking.
Late 2018, I stumbled upon Paradise and I think the cracks I had al-
lowed some light to pass through. I am feeling lighter these days, and i will
face the world with a smile.
A, 25, malaysia
@bbbbang7
When BTS dropped MOTS & after I read the book, I realized I did cer-
tainly have a few persona. I’ve always tried to portray a strong, indep. young
woman when I am outside my zone (my room), & a few more depends on
who I am talking to/with. It made me think, I even did try a few times show-
ing those people who I really am w/o that ‘persona’ but realized it is part of
me too & it’ll always be. W/ BTS, I learned to embrace those persona despite
trying to change, BUT I embraced more & showed more the ‘real me’ perso-
na now. And it isn’t a bad thing to be ‘you’ you. I feel free after I did that.
Kristine Kayla, 21, Philippines
@kaylabtsarmy
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