Aries Magazine Aries July 2013 | Page 122

I just woke up and realized that I don’t love him anymore. I don’t know how to say it to him. I decided yesterday to buy gages and to stretch my ears a bit. I came home today hoping my mother wouldn’t be judgmental and shun me for my decision. I see you more than just a friend and I see us down the road. I even know that you feel the same way. You were ready to tell my bf. Every time to see walk away from me or when you ahead of me, I feel like you are walking out of my life. I know that were not together and your straight and it will never happen. But I love you! That day you sat across from me in the coffee shop, told me w ith such certainty, that ‘We never really loved one another’ killed me. I made up a rumor that my friend was cheating on her bf so they'd break up beca use I secretly hated her. It worked I hate the way I look. Every guy falls for me and wants to do things with me. I look into the mirror and wish that I was an ugly person. My life would be easier for me. I want to get into a car crash and mess up my face. DIRTY SECRETS J U LY 2 0 1 3 I wish I wasn’t gay, simple as that. How can I be proud of something that the whole world is against, I guess I’m just not that strong with the same guy for 2 yrs even know. I been in love I want to snort drugs to lose weight. I’ve done it twice. I think I like it I burned down my apartment so I don’t have to be constantly reminded of where my boyfriend cheated on me. Watching it burn help me let it go. Now that I have an insurance check 122 A R I E S / J U LY 2 0 1 3 and he doesn't I’m worried that you are going to find out just how much I obsess over you and get freaked out. Believe me, I’ve tried, but I can’t stop thinking about you / ARIES 121 My college roommate doesn’t know I am gay. One night he came to our dorm drunk off of his ass and had told me that he was acting straight. Then he came over, kissed me & said that he’d never been in love before.